Kandra Destany Crissen - Online Memorial Website

You know, I got started with a candle but that really isnt enough. You've been on my mind so much lately. I think its cause i keep seeing old friends of ours lately. Youre gonna be 18 Monday, Happy birthday girl. I wish you were here so we could get wild and celebrate but I know your in a better place. I graduated last year and I had the poem I wrote about you tucked in my robes. Its so hard not to cry sometimes when I think about how much I miss you and how we used to joke about taking over and being all big to do. I work in fashion now, but id give up everything like that and all my artwork to have you back. I still cant forget the first day of freshman year when you ran down the hall and jumped on me or us playin around in 8th grade gym. You've always been my girl and you always will be so you better hold it down for me up there and throw in a few good words cause Lord knows ima need it. I miss you straight up and there isnt enough words to even begin to explain it. I love you girl.

kandra you died 3 days before my birthday and 4 days after your but i think god did that for a reason. the best time i remembered was when you told me and kasandra that you wanted us to be your models for your OMG ITS KANDRA. and we made up a dance and everthing. i will always remember you for eternity and dont ever forget that. it seems like when you died it felt like you were still alive.but no more pain and no more suffering. haha i cant forget any of those silly memories of you and kasandra fighting but i know you always loved her. i remeber one day when you told me you loved me and made a big smile at me when you were at the hospital. i feel so bad for kasandra and katrina because now theres no meme and now no kandra. also terry because she loved him so verrrry much. why does this day always come but in this world no one ever lives forever. i love you kandra destiny crissen {LEXIPOOH}

hay i had the illest memmory it was 7th grade in jeb stuart and i rember when crank dat pretty boy came out and u was trying to show me how to do that dance and u had me luaghing sooooo hard u were like it so easy  but for me it was hard u were such a good dancer and im happy i got to know you even though it was only for a few months yea we had are differences and i just wish i could go back in time and talk to you....you had such a good heart you were truly amazeing  and i hope one day you can finish teaching me cuase i still dont know it lol

the funny thing about this picture is that i was standing like right in front of you.. you were sitting next to myles.. hmm.. its crazy how like all of a sudden you're gone. It's been a year.. the longest year of my life.. im still tryna get over this thing called life without you here with me.. its sooo much that i could talk to you about ** never worry about someone else knowing my business.. i remember the time we were at brenden's and we did that thing(insider) our mama's were fussing as soon as you got here.. we were like soooooooooooooooo shut up lol.. im glad that you were my angel && that God placed you in my life.. OMG sis I Love && Miss You.

 

&& iREPP D0RK T00 :)

 

--Kaneisha Your Sissy

man..kandra i cant stop thinkin about u.u were a really good friend to me.we had so many memories.i remember when we always use to get in trouble in 4th period because we would always walk to lunch.i remember everytime that u were bored u would always come to my house to see what i was doing.nd we always ended up eatin nd watchin movies.i remember when we went to the movies to see marquis.remember that face that i made when i saw hiim.you would always bug me about it nd said that he looked like a chomp.lol.in 4th period we would sit on the bleachers nd look up at the sky nd ask sum dum questions like what if the sky wasnt blue. i miss u so much. i miss seeing u on the morning bus.i cant get over it.last time we got to see each  other was that one day i came to see u at the hospital.man when u saw me u put on this big smile.im never going to forget that.i wish we had more time to spend together.sometimes i ask god how you are doing up there.why did u have to leave kandra?why couldnt you at least tell me goodbye.you are always going to be in my heart.i misssssssssssssssssssssssssssss you..................... hope to see again soon.love you bestfriend. we always gonna stay reppin RR.

Every day that goes by I cry for you.  Due to the memories of your laughter and jokes.  Always clowning around and being goofy.  It is so quite now around the house.  I look at the pictures eagerly wanting it to be a nightmare and I will soon wake up but its true you are in a far better place then we are.  So, this makes me think about the time in the skating rink where you danced your little heart out 2 months before you got sick.  You just couldn't get enough and beg for me to let you stay and I did.  I picked you up and all you could do is think of food and lean over to me in the car, smiled n told me you loved me dearly due to you wanting food!! Always knew how to get what you wanted.  Even your daddy Brenden couldn't resist your ways of getting what your heart desired!! He never let you want for nothing.  You were amazing and vibrant!!! I love you!

To my sister,

                 Kandra even though when you were alive all we did was fight that was just my way of saying that i truly loved you and cared for you! when kandra was in the hospital she was really upset ubout her cheeks expanding, so when my mom walked out of the room she said to me: "am i ugly" and i felt soooooo bad because i knew that she wasnt and i didnt like to see her cry over that! So I replied "no kandra you look the same!" she just turned her head looked in the mirror and cried! I felt bad one day because i truly didnt want to go to the hospital and i couldnt believe that i had been so selfish to her! As her sister she told me everything she even told me that she had started to love terry! I felt so happy that she choose to tell me that over everyone else! now the only thing that cheers me up is to think about the time that I was about to leave and Kandra didnt want me to go and i wondered why and it dawned on me that obviously even though she didnt show it all the time that she really loved me! i dont get why death come, does it come to punish us or to send a moral! Sometimes i wish i could just leave this misreble place we call earth to be with Kandra, meme, and roxy! i took this pic!

This is the poem Kandra wrote me:

 

To my Angel
Kandra can you hear me up there....i just want to let you know i just cherish all our moments we had. Especially the summer of 2008. We had so much fun i just remember how you use to try to slap box me and your set was so ugly lol and how i use to always take your ipod and you introduced me to some song called milk and cereal lol that song was funny but it was jamming. How we use to talk on the phone about nothing lol just having funny on the phone calling everybody green and we just be laughing up something. Dang i cant believe you gone it just seem like yesterday when you was telling my sister how you cant wait for the summer so you could chill again with us. And i was ready to hang with your crazy self again lol....and your dancing.. you thought you could dance better than me so you would send me videos of you doing some crazy lil dance moves lol... you was so gifted and talented ... you never got to finish that piece of art you was drawing for me :( ...ima truly miss you and there is so much more i could write but im not me and you both know we was that fye and not green lol. See you soon! Love Ya!